Last weekend I attended the Problogger Conference. It was my fist blogging conference as I had to pull out of TBEX last minute due to Dan’s medical issues. So when I heard that Problogger was going to be held on the Gold Coast this year, about an hour away from where I live, I felt that I HAD to go.
I didn’t know what to expect from the conference. Many people who were attending had specific goals…. network with other bloggers, learn more effective marketing,,etc…etc. For me, I was there for inspiration.
After we had to cancel our trip across Canada, and Dan went in for a 13 hour surgery which had never before been performed in Australia, I lost my blogging motivation.
I could hardly get out of bed some days. I hardly ever checked my emails. Facebook and twitter went silent. The only reason my blog kept up it’s minimum numbers of traffic is because I was lucky enough to have pre-scheduled several months worth of articles. Dan had to permanently leave the work force, so when I went back to work it meant even less time for the blog.
For the first time in my life, I was responsible for financially supporting three people who depended on me completely.
When things in our lives made it possible to travel again, I faced a major stumbling block. Do I leave a comfortable, well paying, and reliable job to pursue travel? We decided to take the opportunity, but I was still doubting myself.
The main message I got from the Problogger conference was that this sort of fear and self doubt is natural, and that it is impossible to realize your dreams or realize your potential unless you work through it.
“What will you do with your wild precious life?”
That was a quote from musician Clare Bowditch at the closing of the first day of Problogger. It really resonated with me. Will I spend my time worrying about the what if’s of the future so much, that I don’t do anything in the now?
It really resonated with me because of Dan’s recent brush with death.
Even though we have done a lot in our lives, there are still those major bucket list items that we keep putting off…
We will do it when we have more money….
We will do it when we have more time….
We are too busy right now….
We will do it later….
But what if there is no later? Dan, at 23, had a tumour in his spine so large, and so entwined around the main artery to the brain, that if we had not discovered it when we had he could have easily have become a quadropelegic, or have had a stroke, in a mere matter of months… if not weeks. One hard knock…. slamming on the brakes in the car for instance… could have ended his life.
And then there was the surgery. The human body holds roughly 5 liters of blood. Dan lost 10 litres during the operation.
We learned that there might not be a later….
So even though we had decided to travel before the Problogger conference began, it wasn’t until after the conference that I became at peace with this decision. So yes, not taking the permanent job might make my family a little less financially secure in the right now, but if we don’t take this chance, if we don’t do the things that make us happy in our lives, when will we ever? What if there isn’t a next time?
Now that I am peace with the idea of travelling again. Now that Dan is out of the hospital and can help with taking care of Jacob. Now that I have fought through the fear that was holding me back, I now have the motivation to continue with OurOyster.
Stay tuned for our next post with blogging resolutions, inspired by the Problogger conference