You might have noticed that things have been pretty quiet around here.
I went from posting three times per week… to two times per week… before suddenly falling off the face of the planet. I apologise. I have excuses. Some are better than others.
The last year and a half have seen some major changes in my life. Let’s start at the beginning.
About a year and a half ago I got a new job. I’m not a full time blogger, and being the sole wage earner in my family I had to go out and work. A new opportunity saw me go from a low paid, monotonous and admin focuses type of job, to a much better paid and much more exciting and challenging role. It also saw me move from Melbourne to Sydney. The move and the new job did disrupt my blogging. I went from having a tight and pre planned posting schedule, to missing posts and posting erratically. It was great to have a more challenging day job, but I would come home mentally drained.
Another major change – and regular followers of this blog may have picked up on this – is that my husband and I went our separate ways. Now this was definitely the best decision for both of us, and I am not going to get into the background behind the decision. But this happened. Now, being a mutual decision and all, I didn’t have any mental health or emotional health consequences from the decision. In actual fact, my emotional well being probably immediately improved. But being a single mom, with a challenging day job, was certainly tiring.
My days would look like this;
5:45 AM wake up, get ready, get Jacob ready.
7 AM walk 10 minutes to Jacob’s day care, then walk 20 minutes to the train station and go to work
8AM – 4PM work
5PM get home, make dinner for myself and Jacob, clean up from dinner, do laundry, do all the other errands
7PM get Jacob in the bath and into bed
8PM briefly look at my computer and think about blogging before falling aggressively into sleep
Getting anything done on the blog was a freaking miracle. I did manage to post several times a month though, although there was very little rhyme and reason to my previously incredibly tight posting schedule. This was my life for about a year. I dated some people during this time, but they mostly added stress and took away time, instead of giving me back any freedom to work on the blog.
Then I met a new man. Things have moved quickly and I am now engaged as well as living in a new apartment with him – but that is not the reason for the blogging related silence.
The reason is…
And I am freaking EXHAUSTED.
The first trimester of this pregnancy was pretty much me dragging myself into consciousness just long enough to complete the essential tasks in my day before falling back to sleep. Things are a little bit better now that I am in the second trimester (I *am* writing a post am I not?), but I am still more tired than I have ever been in my life.
I had a difficult pregnancy last time, I had hyperemesis gravidarum (which pretty much means constant vomiting), but despite that I still had my energy levels (not chasing after a 4 year old probably helped). This pregnancy, in comparison, is much easier, but the exhaustion is taking it’s toll.
But I promise… I will be back. This blog is not something I want to quit any time soon, and we have some pretty exciting travel plans on the horizon… I mean… when else will I get a 12 month block off of work…… but more on that later……